Some may ask you, hey, please describe yourself! How do you define yourself? What kind of person are you?
Driven by these kinds of questions, I started to think and rethink. Deeply think. Well she, how do you define yourself?
We can say proudly, hell yeah I am a good person. It sounds too general, right? Everyone can say that. In my case, yes, I am a good person. At least, I thought I am a good person.
The truth is, I can not define myself. Not till now. If you want a simple-straight-forward answer, for sure I can give you that. But when I squeezed my brain and think deeply, nope, even if I have the answer, I am not ready to admit, I am this kind of person, bla bla and bla. Why? Because every single day, I change. I change to be a better person. I tried to be a better person.
Now that I am engaged, the feelings to change to a even better human being is enormous! Before, I found that it is hard to focus on one relationship. I never serious in a relationship matter. Dasar playgirl. After I met the right guy, I had change. Before, I woke up at 6.30 a.m or 6.45 a.m, hey now I have trained myself to wake up at 6 a.m. I am a better cooker now! I took a very great care of my belongings. I sip green tea every morning. I will never get out from house without my sun-block lotion! Haha, I want to count that one too. Before, I hate to wear sun-block. It's oily. After received a good advice from the experts, I tend to take a very good care of my face. Everyone should have facial cleanser (milk product is recommended), toner, moisturizer, and sun-block! I recite Al-Quran more often compare to before. I gained my inner peace! I am absolutely happier than ever! I see things differently. I see people differently.
I am proud to say that every single day that pass by, I am becoming a better person. So I can't define myself for the moment. I may change again. I would love to change. A little changes means a lot to me. Until I am satisfied, then only I can define the true self of mine. So now, I will work harder, chayo2 she!