I deactivated my fb account. There are couple of things which make me upset with fb, so I chose to temporarily deactivated it. It really upsets me seeing people condemning and shitting each other especially among Muslim. My heart shattered like a broken glass everytime I read harsh comments displaying at fb walls or at any forum. Even when you think you are so right, who gave you the license to look down on others? There are always better ways in advising or sharing an information. I believe there are proper ways in addressing them. Did not we brothers and sisters in Islam? So why can't you stop the cat and dog fight?
Even worse, you share some humiliating pictures of others, exaggerate about it, and kidding on it. Even if you hate them that much, does it even occur to you to think that they are someone's mother or father. Is your heart that cold to even feel a slight pity for them?
I pity myself for being vulnerable and unable to do anything about it. I did advices many times via fb yet to no avail. I was totally affected by Muslim community in fb recently, so I chose to be in silent mode.
Every time I read those, I felt like my heart was tainted with dark-evil spot. Years ago when I had my first-time menstruation, I swore I will take a very good care of my heart. There will be no room for 'heart-sickness' or the deadly-sin. But now, every single day I failed to sieve all those unacceptable things Muslim did from hurting me internally. Reading them make me feel uneasy, angry, sad, and terribly dissapointed.
I will be back in few days after my heart and mind are in peace. Please, be good, okai!