Rain check 2012

Salam and greetings. It has been a while, isn't it? I hope everyone is in the pink of health. It's nearly the end of 2012, so I decided to have a check on 2012 resolutions. I wrote this on January 2012. So lets have a check, shall we?

New year resolution 2012

My new year resolution is more about improving myself. Not to mention i will be a wife, soon. So here's my list, which I also save it in my handphone. I will jot it down and hang it near my bed.

1. Jaga solat. Solat di awal waktu. Alasan tertido or bangun lewat is a big no no! Totally improve in jaga solat, toma'ninah dijaga, bacaan dijaga, cuma nak solat betul-betul awal masih belum terlaksana. Aigooooo~

2. Bangun awal, at least 6 am. Tidur cukup, can't exceed 12. Fail miserably. Tidur sebelum pukul 12 macam sangat jarang berlaku. Sigh.

3. Exercise backbone sebelum tidur. lalalalalalala, tak buat pom.

4. Minum air panas di waktu pagi Berjaya!

5. Jangan lupa makan supplement for backbone and etc. selalu lupa~

6. Jangan miss breakfast. Ada improvement compare to tahun sebelum

7. Jangan minum ais Berjaya kecuali teh ais

8. Rajin di makmal Rajin cuma ada masalah, tahun 2013 insyaAllah berjalan lancar

9. Rajin kemas umah@bilik Saya rasa saya rajin, tapi boleh rajin lagi

10.Rajin basuh baju Perkara paling malas in comparison to lain-lain kerja rumah, sebab baju dibasuh according to types, so, leceh, so, I all rasa malas sikit lah. OK alasan

11.Pakai sun-block sebelum keluar rumah. Ngeeee Bab ni rajin sangat-sangat

12.Pakai lotion sebelum tidur Lupa

13.Pakai selipar rumah. Kaki sensitif aih~ Pakai after dibebel suami

14.Shape kan body ala2 scarlet johansen gitu Scarlet Johansen ada selulit, I all takde, mane ade

15.Facial at least sekali semingggu  Sebulan sekali logik sikit kan, tahun 2012 tiada bajet untuk itu, 2013 insyaAllah ada

16.Baca news every morning Ada improvement, tapi politik luar negara lagi tip top kalau nak compare dengan dalam negara. Ibrahim Ali tu pon tak berape nak kenal, tapi tak kenal beliau pon takpe. Saya baca google news je, suami baca Malaysiakini

17.Baca buku sebelum tidur Awal-awal tahun sangat rajin membaca buku-buku Islamik, akhir-akhir tahun sibuk sikit, takde masa, OK tipu, saya tak peruntukkan masa untuk membaca sebelum tidur. Lagi prefer tickling my hubby, eh eh eh

18.Rajin memasak Rajin kecuali breakfast, kalut sangat. Better prepare bahan sikit malam before tidur, so pagi tu tak rushing. 

19.Jogging di hujung minggu Saya dah lupa bila last saya jogging, nasib baik masih kurus walaupun makan nasi macam 3 orang makan. Kelebihan Allah bagi, tapi kalau tak jaga, takut juga Allah tarik nikmat itu, so she, please jaga

20.Sentiasa pegang buku Selalu pegang planner, sayang sangat kat planner, banyak nota dalam tu

21.Hindar penyakit hati Takde, Alhamdulillah

22.Selalu senyum, jangan masam2 2012 banyak dugaan, selalu menangis. huuuuu

23.Sentiasa bersangka baik Agak susah especially bila terang-terangan you have been mistreated. Alhamdulillah, dapat mimpi separa sedar yang berbunyi.."takpe orang layan tak baik, yang penting kita sentiasa layan orang baik"

24.Menjadi isteri solehah yang terbaik untuk suami~ Sampai ke akhir hayat saya akan sentiasa berusaha!

More to come, have to start little by little.

Dear 2012, I welcomed you with arms wide open. Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan di tahun 2012.

So how's your 2012?

Love,

She
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A few notes on recent life

Words are just not enough to describe what I'd been through lately. Mix of emotions I could say. Nevertheless, what past is past. The future never fails to intrigue me. Living in bliss in this present life either as servant to Allah, wife to dear husband, daughter to my parent, or even a master student, only lead me to a rightful way. To Him. Despite all the problems, I am better now. I performed a Solat hajat last couple of days asking for guidance and peace. Sometimes I kept asking myself, how do I look in His 'eyes'? Does He recognize me? How to get His attention? I believe when you are someone so dear to Him, He always remember you. So I add another wish in my wish-list. I want to be a servant so dear to Him. I don't want to just be like other millions servant in this world. I want to be special for Him. So I started my baby steps. I don't wear tight jeans anymore. I wear long scarft to cover my chest. I wore loose cloth. But still it looks pretty in my husband's eyes. Well, that's all what really matter.

As a wife, I can consider myself as a bad wife. In a few circumstances. I struggled to find peace with quality of life after getting married. Sometimes I woke up late and rushed to University. I failed to provide my husband with a good breakfast. I slept late too because of so many divergances. Manga, Facebook, blog, and et cetera. Well something that I constantly need to remind myself is that, I am no longer a single lady. When you vowed to be a great wife on previous day, sacrifices do not awaits you at bay. They linger around you every day. So She, you know what you have to do. Choose your interest wisely, you just can't have it all. Priorities come first.

A senior of mine once said, to really welcome a stranger in your life, it takes time. Hell yeah. On first and second month of our marriage, I remember built a boundary between me and husband. For instances, this is my clothing space, and that is yours. Do not mess with my clothes. Do not bla bla and bla bla. After a while, husband said "What's the point of marriage if we have to follow all the boundaries? Aren't we husband and wife?". Brilliant point, right? Screw me and all my single life rules. Up to this point of life, I am still learning about my husband. What he likes and dislikes in cooking, what does he feel when I say this and that, what he really loves me to wear, what he desires most, and many more. It may take longer time but I am willing to learn. Because he, my husband, is the only man I'd ever love this much.

On my parent, they were doing great at village. I miss them so much. Frequently I shared stories of my childhood to dear hubby. Tears are soo hard to contain when I am talking about them. I have a superb memories of childhood. To my parent, I will give the world to them if I can. Due other responsibilities and limitation, we can't visit them every week. When ever we were at village, week end seem to be shorter. Maybe because Friday is so near to Monday, but Monday is far from Friday. Dear Allah, please shower my parent and ma in law with Your Blessing. Amin.

Life as student is great too! In first semester I managed to complete almost one subfamily and get myself familiar with the laboratory protocols. My supervisor push me to convert my master to pHD. I am excited. The other researcher at FRIM also support my conversion to pHD. Let see how my study will progress in the future. May Allah guide me all the way. 


p/s: I had deleted certain posts that brought judge and prejudge which I totally disagree. This is my own space where I documented what had happened in my life. Just for that purpose, so my future will know what I'd been through nor it's bitter. It took a whole lot of sighing and sighing to open a wounded scar. If I did it with bad intention or because of anger, why would I do it now. All my writings are meant for my future, and to find someone violated and made sarcastic post out of it is totally unacceptable. You may deny or make reasons, but Allah know what happened deep down in your heart. 

Write beautifully

To have a masterpiece, some say we need to read a lot. A fluent and superb English may assist too. Some even say we have to pour our heart while writing. The urge to write beautifully is getting stronger especially after getting married.

I have grown up again. Grow to my next phase of life. To feel more. To love more. To live more. By writing beautifully, my inner soul is in peace. My heart bloom everytime I read my written-emotion. It separates the old and new version of me. As people change, emotion evolved too. I tend to care more and give more. And of course, all those beautiful feelings are solely for my husband.

I have a loving husband. I will trade him for nothing. He is the best thing that ever happened to me. He inspired me everyday to be a good wife. To accept flaws and improve to the better. He is the main reason why I want to write beautifully. I am afraid if I can not  portray him how much I love him. I want him to feel me. My emotion. Instead of just conveying my love through action alone, I want him to taste the sweetness of my words.

Plus he loves to read my writing. 

Little notes on today

Tiring day today. I managed to observe my pollen, collecting data, and booking a session for next week to view my pollen via Scanning Electron Microscope (SEM). All praise to Almighty for guiding and ease my work for today. During our solah together, hubby always pray "robbana yassir wa la tuassir". Talking about that, my heart really melted everytime hubby said "Kurniakan lah kami zuriat yang soleh dan solehah, dan tetapkanlah rasa cinta dalam hati kami,........". I am grateful with my life. Ya Allah, thank you for the opportunity given in this temporary world. I will be a better servant for you dear Allah".

I am grateful too to be surrounded by nice people. It is hard to book a session to use SEM. However, I am quite close with the staff so they let me in without booking. Alhamdulillah. Some people will find this unfair, but honestly I did not bribe them with sweet words or pretending to be close to them. The first time I met them is via my colleague. I respect, treat them nicely, and in return they treat me well too. I always believe that when you treat people nicely like how you want people to treat you, they will do the same to you. If they want to use my time to view their samples, I am not reluctant at all to share with them. Allah is fair, He knows what's inside your heart. So, just sincerely do good deeds, OK.

After office hour, we rush back to UPM. Husband got work to do. We arrived home at 9 something. I want to scrubbed my body, drink plain water, spray my YSL Baby doll perfume, then hug my hubby! Hehe. He is sleeping, poor him, too tired. I massage him a little then he fall to sleep.

Till then, happy blogging!